Blog
My blog is a place where I hope to be honest with my readers, where I can explore tricky subjects, and share myself with you. I’ve struggled with my voice in the past, editing myself so as not to offend, bending myself into a pretzel to please everyone, but I’ve learned that when you do that, your true authentic self is lost. And losing yourself isn’t worth the approval of anyone. So I will chronicle my aspirations and achievements, my fears; I will attempt to split my skull open in the way I do with my characters and let you see my secret heart.
What They Don’t Tell You About Miscarriage (Yes, I Miscarried/Am Miscarrying)
I miscarried. Am miscarrying. And it’s a cruel thing, these pregnancy hormones, because they can trick your mind into believing you are still pregnant. I’m still nauseous. My breasts are still tender. But I’m no longer narcoleptic. And I no longer drop to my knees at...
What They Don’t Tell You About Pregnancy (Surprise – I’m Pregnant!)
Today I am 5 weeks, 1 day pregnant. And today we find out the results of my blood work from Friday and Sunday to see if this pregnancy is viable. It’s a scary thing, being pregnant. And I had a conversation with my therapist about how couples decide to keep it a...
BadAss Writers Don’t Quit. They Persevere.
“Own your vision. Be unrelenting in its creation. Control the nuance while allowing for malleability.” – Bucho Rodenberger This morning I got fired up (Lately, I’ve been feeling on fire) when I read these words. A quote from a colleague of mine, a fellow writer...
A Note On Grief.
Today is for acknowledging fear, darkness, and the shadows that live within us. It is for honesty and self-love. Vulnerability. I am open. I am speaking. Please listen. Today I had a polarity therapy session with my massage therapist, and about an hour into the...
Facebook is my Answering Machine
Do you remember the days when we had answering machines? When cell phones didn’t exist and you couldn’t be reached ALL the time? When others didn’t expect you to be reached all the time? And do you remember coming home, and feeling that little flitter of excitement...
Query Letters & Pizza Hut & Alcohol: lessons from PNWA Writer’s Conference 2016
So many emotions inside of this body. So many questions, doubts, and fears. Will my book ever be ready? Will an agent want me? Will my book be published? Will I amount to anything? All of these questions as I order Pizza Hut (a childhood staple) and sooth...